cali20
25th January 2007, 11:38 AM
I know thats got to be what most wemon think when they find out their child to be had died. I was 13 weeks and 4 days along when i found out that my baby had died at 10 wks. This was suppost to be my second chance. My 8 week ultrasound had been perfect. I already lost my son. Not to death, but to adoption. My husband and i were homeless, liveing in an abandoned building when we found out i was pregnant. We wernt on drugs or anything, i was just an ex-foster child, alone with noone to turn to for help when i aged out of the system. I was bleeding, and the doctor said i'd lose my baby if i didn't have food and strict bedrest. So we made the choice to save our baby at the cost of our own happiness. It was the hardest dicition of my life, but i know my 1 year old son is with a wonderful family. Now my husband and i are on our feet, able to finally take care of a child. I did everything right, just to lose my baby at 13 weeks and 4 days. I want to try again, but i'm terrified of loseing another baby and reliveing this whole thing all over again.